02 7 / 2010
losing it
you know, i would fucking kill to be able to write about… even remember the last month or so. if i sit down and actually think, i could probably remember it but that would be counter-productive. ive done this on purpose. i don’t really want to remember. to me, none of that happened.
i’ve forgotten you. i’ve forgotten who you are and how you made me feel. its strange when something reminds me of all this and i actually feel something.. usually just slight nausea…. then nothingness. i can’t for some reason allow myself feel anything.
and then i did what i probably shouldnt have done. oh well. i needed it? probably not. all is said and done. i leave between august 1-14.. im starting over new. starting over fresh.
